One day before the day of the beginning, I went out with my family.
The destination was the Nodges River, where nobles often went to play.
I heard that this area was originally full of crimes, but my father cleared it all up.
“Dad did that?”
When I asked, my mother smiled and said,
“Yes. Your father cleared the gangs here.”
I said, “Wow!” and looked at father, who was silent beside my mother.
“But my dad is not intwerested in othew peopwe’s affaiws. Does this dad likes others?”
(But my dad is not interested in other people’s affairs. Does this dad likes others?)
“Even here, your father has no interest in other people’s affairs.”
My mom smiled and looked at dad.
“The gangs used to trafficked children. He said he couldn’t stand still.”
My brothers and I looked at Dad.
Dad looked out the window, saying nothing.
‘My father here is very kind.’
After all, the relationship between my father and my brothers was good.
‘Maybe better than where I’m from.’
Isaac hung onto dad without hesitation, and Henry seemed to be close to him. Also, Johann looked incredibly comfortable when he was talking to him.
At first, such a sight was surprising, but now it felt very familiar.
‘Maybe, if my family hadn’t been deprived by others, it might be like this in the future… … .’
“Kid, what do you think?”
Here, Isaac called me a kid or a baby.
I was used to the word kid. Because the future Isaac also called me that way.
The word kid which was used to tease me, continued and became a nickname.
Isaac here called me a baby more than a kid.
It seems that he followed mom and dad because they called me ‘my baby’ here.
Mom looked at Isaac with stern eyes. As Isaac frowned, she narrowed her eyes and said.
“Even if it’s a word of affection, if the other person doesn’t like it, you shouldn’t say it.”
As Isaac pouted, my dad, who had glanced at the child with his arms crossed, opened his mouth.
*TL/N: Koreans usually use this word to call someone who’s full of mischiefs.
Isaac becomes agitated.
Dad grabbed Isaac’s nose.
“See? Don’t you feel offended when you’re called by a name you don’t like?”
Johann and Henry looked at Isaac with a smile.
‘I must have hated the nickname kid here.”
Isaac looked at me with a sullen expression.
“I’m sorry I teased you because of your short legs. I just did it because you were cute. Don’t hate me, baby*…….”
*TL/N: I don’t know how to translate this, but they literally called her a ‘baby’.
“I’m okay, Isyak. The small Bwaine likes Isyak too.”
“Really? I will not call you kid anymore!”
Isaac’s expression quickly brightened.
My mom and dad giggled as they saw Isaac become cheerful again.
“Kid- no, baby! We’re here! That’s the Nodges River!”
Looking out the window, I let out an exclamation.
The future me only went to the Nodges River only once, and it was winter, so it was frozen.
In addition, the trees and grass were dead.
It was a good place, but the Nodges River of this season was special.
The water reflect and sparkle under the sunlight, beautiful larks come and go between the trees, and the air smells fragrant.
I grabbed the window frame and shouted excitedly.
“Let’s go! Hurry, Hurry!”
When I shouted wth excitement, my family burst into laughter.
I grabbed my dad and mom’s hands and got off.
While the servants were getting ready to float the boat, I decided to have lunch with my family.
The lunch today is barbecue. My father grilled the minced meat brought from the castle on the fire.
“Dad, I want to grill the meat.”
When I put my chin on my dad’s arm and said that, he didn’t allow me and said it’s dangerous.
Mom and dad were busy feeding us food. I felt today’s food was the most delicious than any other high-quality dish.
It was really fun to eat meat cooked by my father and bite the vegetables that my mother prepared.
After lunch, my dad carried me and we walked around.
My brothers had a running match with my parents and me as the referee.
First place was Johann, second place was Isaac, and third place was Henry.
“Johann is number one!”
Henry, who was watching me screaming, turned to Johann.
“One more time.”
“No need. The result will be the same, what for?”
Henry’s face wrinkled as Johann spoke with an arrogant expression.
“You won’t know unless you try!”
Was Henry always competitive like this?
My older brothers eventually competed again.
They did it four more times.
Johann and Isaac took turns in first place, but Henry was always last.
My mother covered her cheek with one hand as she looked at Henry who was excited, because he rarely showing his emotions.
“Henry is a brainy type by nature. It would have been better if the talents were evenly distributed.”
“Lisette, I don’t care.”
As my father coughed and looked sideways at Henry, my mother smiled awkwardly and said, “Oops.”
Henry was staring at his feet with cold eyes.
I approached Henry with the flower crown that I made with the maid during the running match.
“I’ll gwive it to you, Henwy..”
“…The one who won the first place is not me.”
“But Henwy is the most passionate. You’we the best to me.”
When I tiptoed and put a flower crown made of wild flowers on Henry’s head, his expression changed.
Henry, who carefully touched the wild flowers, muttered a little.
“…Am I cool even if I can’t win?”
I giggled at Henry’s slight smile, and my back felt pierced by some gazes.
“Aren’t I cool too?”
Isaac and Johann were staring at Henry’s flower crown with terrifying expressions. I was startled.
“Oh, yes. Johann and Isyac is cool too.”
“Aren’t I the best?”
Oops, I’m in trouble.
‘I can’t say he’s the best.’
Worried about what would happen next, I looked at my parents asking for help.
‘Look at the brothers!’
They will fight again!
“Didn’t my fairy think I’m the coolest…?”
“Is Henry cooler than me?”
The faces of my mom and dad were also terrifying.
‘Please save me, really.’
I came back and was very tired.
“Hurry up and bring the documents.”
“Bring the stipend statement.”
“Where’s my book?”
“Look, baby! I picked up two wooden swords! Aren’t I working really hard?!”
Henry seemed more excited as he was crossing his legs wearing a flower crown with a smug expression.
I stood among my noisy family with a haggard look on my face.
‘How do they have better stamina than a kid?’
Are they the scary Dubblede family.….?
Looking sad, Reina, who was guarding the castle, asked me.
“Oh my, why is our young lady so weak?”
“It’s hawd to live. (It’s hard to live.)”
“Reina won’t undewstand a child’s pwain…”
Reina was very surprised, and the other servants burst into laughter.
I went to bed early that night. Because I had to leave for the temple tomorrow morning.
I was so tired that I thought I would fall asleep soon, but the door opened slightly.
As I turned my head, I saw a mother with a pillow.
“Shall we sleep together?”
Then, brothers in pajamas flocked to my mother’s side.
When my mom settled next to me, my brothers got into the bed.
My bed was very, very big, but that didn’t mean all of these people could sleep comfortably.
Adding to that, my dad came and coughed awkwardly as he came, then he forced himself into the cramped bed.
“Ugh! It’s cramped!”
“Dad should sleep under the bed.”
Dad took up the bed in spite of my brothers’ shouts.
I groaned and forced myself to bend. That’s how I got stuck in my mom’s arms.
Mom hugged me tightly and laughed.
Mom said, rubbing her face against my cheek.
“Even if it’s uncomfortable, you’re happy. Isn’t it?”
My family burst into laughter as I mumbled.
‘Yes, I’m happy.’
To the point of not wanting to go back.
I know I have to go back, but the voice inside me seemed to whisper.
‘Do I have to go back?’
I forcibly turned away from the voice by closing my eyes.
‘It’s the life you wanted. There is my mother, father, and brothers.’
‘My family not deprived. It’s a life where happiness is a natural thing.’
‘I’m protected here, and there will be nothing painful in the world guarded by Adrian.’
‘See, Leblaine. When you go back, you will be busy recovering the damage you suffered from Neliard.’
‘There will be a lot of nobles who are annoying, and you may be hurt again. And…’
Don’t say that.
Stop, please… … .
‘My mother’s not there.’
Don’t remind me!
I covered my ears.
As my expression contorted in pain, warmth reached his hand.
“Why is my daughter’s expression like that?”
I hugged my mother tightly.
“Are you okay?”
I’m fine. It will be fine. It should be okay
While muttering inside as if brainwashing myself, my mother constantly swept my back.
It was so sweet that I cried because I didn’t want to miss this warmth.
‘I don’t want to go back.’
In the end, I have no choice but to admit it.
When I opened my eyes, I was in the familiar darkness.
I know this place even if it is not surrounded by light as before.
There was only one reason why I could come here now that there was no Serga or Neliard.
He seemed to be trusted by people much more than I thought.
Thus, he eventually became a god.
Just as Neliard, who was a pioneer, absorbed human beliefs and became a god.
But, the space wasn’t as bright perhaps because he did not become a powerful god like Neliard.
‘Well, it’s peaceful.’
The moment when people need God is when they are in pain.
So, didn’t the temple wage war so that people’s faith could gather or create a disaster to devastate the people’s world?
I wandered in the dark to find Adrian.
I could see a light far away.
‘Adrian? Are you Adrian?’
There was no answer.
As I was rushing to the light, I heard a voice from somewhere.
[You don’t have to come.]
[You don’t have to go, Leblaine.]
‘Adrian… … .’
[You deserve to be here.]